Sunday, November 28, 2010

The real me?

Whenever I look at a picture I've taken with a group, my eyes dart immediately to myself. I'm not sure why this happens; I suppose it has to do with checking to make sure I approve of the way I look (I have no clue what I'd do if I didn't approve... snatch the photo from its owner and tear it to shreds?). But the thing is, I always look exactly the same. In my many years of experience being photographed, I've perfected the artificial smile that is guaranteed to convince my future self that I was indeed having a joyful time at whatever event some person had decided to document.


Or maybe I'm intrigued by photos of myself because they're different from the way I usually see myself. When I normally look at myself, I see a mirror image. This isn't what the camera sees. And my face, like most people's, is not perfectly symmetrical; hence the very cheerful Henry I see in the photo is different from the groggy and disoriented Henry whom I see staring at me every morning. The photographed Henry is the one that the world sees, the one they know. But they're deluded; they aren't seeing the real me, rather a very slighted tweaked version of me.

Only by staring at my reflection can you learn who I really am.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Buenos Aires


In March 2010 I took a two week break from financial services consulting to visit the country from which my mother immigrated in 1974. Buenos Aires, Argentina is only two hours ahead of the east coast of the United States, but is the opposite season. The toilets also flush in a direction opposite to that of the northern hemisphere. My work in Argentina, perhaps influenced by these factors, took a somewhat different turn.


While introspection usually inspires me to make images, in Argentina I made observational photos. In Argentina I was an outsider. Could it be that when outside their element people are more likely to look outward? It makes sense. Outsiders need to observe if they ever have a hope of getting “in.”


Not to mention, I was on assignment for Ali Van, who asked that I bring her back pictures of great architecture. In fact, this request was what first inspired me to make vertical panoramic photos. Well that and the fact that it can be difficult to make a convincing depiction of a WHOLE building using a 50mm fixed lens.
Was I really an outsider in Argentina? My Spanish leaves something to be desired. But my mother lived there for her first fourteen years. Does that mean that I belong there in some way? Buenos Aires is part of my family’s history. As for the rest I’m not so sure.


For those of you interested in seeing more, I have a whole facebook album dedicated to my trip. See it here! And finally, for truly dedicated fans, I am having a show in Greenwich, CT on December 8th. Details to follow soon.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

This is a Mistake

Just as soon as Ken Baldwin jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge, he realized that he had made a mistake. He didn't want to die. Baldwin was rescued by construction workers who witnessed his jump, and later that night, he was slipping in and out of consciousness in a hospital bed. The doctor told his wife that he had a 50/50 chance of surviving, "depending on whether he wanted to live." He's now one of the eight million living Americans who have attempted suicide.
Only about one in forty people survive the 220-foot fall into the San Francisco Bay. Most of those folks report having an experience similar to Ken's, in which they regretted the decision immediately after leaping over the rail.

I learned about Ken's story when listening to an episode of Radiolab. Also see this story from the San Francisco Gate.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Best Compact Digital Cameras for Fall 2010

Dearest blog readers,
in an effort to get more views on this page and provide you with something helpful, I will commit to answer any questions about photographs, photography, or cameras posed to me.  Feel free to email, text message, or facebook wall post. I will answer your questions.

So bring it.

Reader’s Demand:
I want a digital camera that I can use on my vacations. I want one that has good capabilities for darker, indoor lit places (but can also do outdoor scenes effectively as well). I want one that can use regular disposable batteries, preferably double A. Let me know your thoughts. If there is one that has a good price (on sale or something), that would be good too....

My Obsequious Reply:

Canon Cameras
The G-12
Suggested Retail Price: $499
I’ve take pictures with the cannon G-series compact cameras, you won’t see better images unless you are using an SLR. This camera is also loaded with features like low light optimization, image stabilizing, and HD video. This one gets the Gabe stamp of approval for camera to buy for trips. The battery is lithium ion.

Get the tech specs for the Canon G12
Buy the G-12 new for $499 with free shipping

Now if you really want something with AA Batteries:

PowerShot SX20 IS
Suggested Retail Price: $399
This camera has more zoom and megapixels. It is a bit bulkier, but it does run on AA batteries, just like you wanted.  This one is probably not as good in low light.


Now for some brand balance!

Nikon Coolpix P7000
Suggested Price: 499.95
It’s pretty much just like the G-12 above. It seems to zoom more. Also lithium ion powered. Also specialized for low light. Probably just as good or better. Wish I could have gotten my hands on one, but I have not used this bad boy.



Nikon Coolpix L110
Suggested Retail Price $279
Great zoom, AA batteries, large resolution. However, it’s a bigger camera, and it probably won’t shock you at night. But if you’re looking for a good deal, this is it!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Modeling in Central Park



By Betty Meng Li
Nov. 7, 2010

It was a beautifully sunny day in early October. Although the slightly chilly breezes served as a reminder that fall was already here, summer lingered in Central Park. There, the sun was still warm, leaves still green, and people were still taking their time jogging, strolling or rowing boats. Walking along the picturesque paths in Central Park in that adorable weather made me look forward even more to what I was going to do.

I was going to model for my friend and photographer Gabriel Diaz. And there he was, waiting already at the Angels-in-America fountain, equipped with his photography set. To be honest, having originally teased him into doing this for my birthday, I did not expect him to actually photograph me. But Gabe had put a lot of thought into how we could make the most out of this modeling session. We had spoken at length about what kind of clothes I should wear for the day. He had sent me on a mission to purchase a bubble gun for modeling purposes, and he himself had managed to obtain a surgical mask, which he also intended to incorporate in the photos. In addition, he had arrived at the Central Park much earlier than I did that day to find a spot and do a few background shots, as he had told me. It seemed pretty clear that Gabe did not get a SLR just for fun.
Shortly after we met, Gabe took me to the spot where he would photograph me. It was an elegant stone bridge with floral designs on its sides. Although it was a new part of Central Park to me, Gabe told me that the bridge was a coveted spot for photographers. Looking around, it was indeed a bustling place for both pedestrians walking above the bridge as well as for rowers who crossed back and forth beneath it. Modeling in that situation, as you might imagine, attracted a lot of attention – all friendly though, and that felt pretty cool.
What Gabe had in mind was to photograph me in different poses and spots, and then place all of “me” together in one photo. With that goal in mind, he fixed his camera on the stand and placed it firmly at one spot, so that he could try to shoot all the pictures with the same viewing angle. In addition, he was very particular about where I would pose and about the relationship between one pose and the next. “Betty,” he told me, “now try to imagine yourself looking into the other ‘Betty’ who was just standing there.” I tried my best to cooperate, and to improvise. Gabe was always honest and straight-forward with his opinions. Sometimes he would favor my improvisation and be very supportive of it, “I love how you squatted just now – let’s do that again.” At other times he would offer an alternative, and he would say, “hmm… I’m not sure that the sunglasses are that great an idea, because they cover a big part of your face that I would rather see on the photo. How about you take them off for now?” We often found ourselves proposing and negotiating ideas like that. Although my ideas developed themselves mostly on the spur of the moment, Gabe often took them over and gave them a coat of professionalism. There was one “professional” suggestion that Gabe made and that I did not take: sitting on the railing of the bridge. “Sorry Gabe, but I just don’t want to sit on my silk dress …” I said with a shrug. “Ah well,” said Gabe, “it’s okay. Let’s do something else then.”
In addition to asking me to be conscious of my multiple poses and positions, Gabe had a reason for advising me to purchase the bubbles. Although I considered blowing bubbles and modeling at the same time primarily a fun thing to do, bubbles served functional purposes for my photographer. According to Gabe, bubbles filled up the distance between one Betty and the next, and thus could better connect the different Bettys and present a more vivid story. On the other hand, Gabe seemed to like how the action of blowing bubbles brought out many different, interesting facial expressions. “Look that those pursing lips,” he burst out, “they look great.” He encouraged me to blow as big and many bubbles as possible, and was eager to capture them reflecting bright sunlight. People who were passing by often looked at my bubbles with abundant curiosity; and it was pretty sweet to see children get easily excited, then jump and run around to chase the bubbles.
The other facilitator to our modeling session, the surgical mask, attracted many curious looks too. It is worth noting that by the time I wore the surgical mask, I had also changed into a long white sweater dress. Gabe had “approved” my choice of that sweater because it would not only go along with the white surgical mask, but would also match the dimmer light cast by the setting sun. He said that he had been interested for a while to work on a composite photo where brighter and darker lights exist side by side. White color, in his opinion, is perfect for a darker background.
I think the white sweater indeed looked great for the last series of photos we took, and we took them in time just before the sun hid its face behind the apartment buildings on the Central Park West. The only thing I didn’t like about the sunset hours, however, were the mosquitoes bites that just bloomed throughout my legs, and they itched as they surely would. Luckily, I was too occupied to scratch them. I was busy imagining what final product Gabe would “recreate” with his computer using the photos that he had created with his camera. In fact, I was lucky to witness that recreation in photoshop take place – before the computer crashed to be precise, but it was still a very interesting and inspiring process. I hope to share that experience soon on this blog too.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Images of Sebastian: lolly pops are the new black

Sebastian Nicolai Diaz, my older brother. I've always thought of him as suaver and more personable than I am. When I photograph him it's easy because he's relaxed. We're both artists so he "gets it." Most models second guess poses or instructions. Not Sebastian. We've spent a whole lifetime observing each other, it's natural, I suppose that we make art about one another. Of my family members, he's the second easiest to photograph, behind my mom. My father is the hardest. I've only ever photographed my father when his eyes are closed, as if his gaze back at the camera would destroy it.
I wonder if I depict Sebastian differently than other subjects. Choosing images of him that reflect our history together. An interesting thought, but the process through which I create works is so chaotic, that I doubt such a selection effect would be observable.